do i love you more than i think ?

to my dearest bff

you tell me the day before you go,

you left us sad,

you make we cry,

missing you everyday,

i know this is your choice,

but it's really hard and painful.

this is what i want to say to someone

i'm only able to see your figure from far

i dont know anything about you

except everything that everyone can see

i want to know you better and more

more than anyone else

can i ?

you looked like you keep more than you show it

if this is our fate, then let it be.

ppl, fyi ;

• dont ask anything about this, buat bodo suda haha
• i dont care if the grammar or etc etc is wrong ! ( i just want to write it here, sukati ah )
• what's wrong with me ? ( i'm tired, i just want to do what i want and be myself )
• i'm fine, dnt worry, if you are,

so the conclusion is : nak bce, just bce, then fine, dont think i'm freakin' jiwang, i'm just too weak, and this thing keep playing on my mind so i write it here, so bia ah en :P

ohh yeaahh, i'm high ! :D

yup yup, i'm high, my flight blik is freakin' pissed off, i got light headache, actually not all along the journey lah, just between dubai to kl bcoz onboard is very full so service gle bz and lembap, haha, what i'm doing is listening to few music, and it is bi rain's song, haha tau ah kn lgu die cmne, sume perasan gle, but love story is not bad, and also few song from mp3, actually it's not dat i become high then i just go dance, gle ke ape, haha it just my imagination is going freaking wild, ohh yeaah, love it, especially since i cnnot sleep and it's already 3 am kt malaysia haha

ppl i'm back, i know dat you guyz dnt miss me, so what ? haha as if i do want to go back and go to school, haha

currently listening to UNAPPRECIATED

hey kamu semua, happy holiday :D

these ppl will be away for their holiday and i'll be missing them, but not all of them i guess haha :P

1. Alya - Lumut & Pangkor
2. Azma - Penang
3. Naqi - Jakarta
4. Durrah - Jakarta & Bandung
5. Hafizah - Fraser Hill
6. Me and Myself, ngee :P

i hope a:fair weekend will get a great success for their bazaar dis tyme,

go go chaiyok guyz ! :D

and of course cuti byk laaah gle hw, tatau leyh abes bfore gy vacation, agagaga, well try jeh ah, nasib dowh.

to everyone,

have fun on holiday no matter what you do :D

and to ppl dat knows me,

please keep in touch with me, and jgn nk sombonk, haaiihh :P

and miss me when i'm away, coz i'll be missing all of you, no matter who you are :D

okaaaaaaaaaaaaay ? alriteee byee =)

The Way It Should Be

the fact is, it's the truth

End of February and Early of March

my pk1 juz ended, i think my result gonna be really bad, well coz when i'm doin' it, cam blur blur ouh, so tibai wa taram jeh ah haha well fyi, my akaun is 29 tao ! haha bangga :D tak kesa ah, life must go on no matter what pfft haha, other then that, mse amal islami, tatau ape mimpi aku, jd pengerusi for syarahan bi for perempuan, muahaha, it's sooooooooo fun (not!), mencuakkan and mengantokkan, haha, okay in da positive side, pengalaman kan ? haha whatever, and psl camp atau perkhemahan perdana, sy ponteng, yeay ! (of course) haha sbb ada hal lah :P sbtu tuh ade tsyen, and ahad pulee, ade org dtg, org org itu merupakan family bakal my abg ipar, yaww ! bukan besh pn, lyke they do care about me, sbb dorg pndang aku pn mcm aku nih anak2 sedara mara jeh kot, or spe spe ntah, pape lah korg, later ! :P ohh yeah, aku da start tsyen, after my akaun is 29 and addmath is 50, i think it's seriously that i need a tuition, so amek tsyen kt berkat jasa utama kt bkt jelutong, (agk jauh en but i guess better than mse kt subang jaya), isnin for physics, tues akaun, thursday, music ( piano ! ngeee :D ) then saturday, addmath, gah ! tp tak start piano class agy huhuhu, cuti nk dkt ~, but i have to study general sc, and bce bce estidotmy lalala rajen banaaaaaa yawww dats all lah, bye bye ppl xoxo :P

16th Feb 09

ermm dnt noe what to say about tday, it's fine, well at least i'm always smiling at school kay, coz there are a lot of sweet memories in my mind, actually tday is my sweet 16, but idk wether it's sweet or not pfft, da first person dat wish my burf is hayati, she sent me a msg last night around 10 o'clock ( awl en ? :D ) and then follow by emir, hee he's hayati ex-senior, and then rahim (my ex-senior) and then shahir then lutfi (both are my senior since primary school) haha mereka semua sangat baik, they are totally my 'abg' lorghh :D but before lutfi is actually azma, she said dat she's not feeling well so she couldnt go to school tday, but s'okay, get well soon azma ! dat morning they're all wishing me to have a great day on my burf, but idk what to say bcoz alya and azma tak dtg (of course) naqi zik ai mmg wish bana and then i got really tired(tdo lmbt mlm smlm :P ) and then blk umah mmg bapak bosan and freakin' lonely, ohh btw my family and I da celeb ysterday kt tarbush pyramid, okay lah kot after pusing satu kl try to reach da menara KL tp sbb le tour de langkawi, so we got stuck and tatau mne nk lalu last last patah blk ke subang and ended up at sunway pyramid, gah ! therefore, mlm nih maybe tak gy mne mne ah kot bcoz my dad tade ( dats y we're celeb my burf ystrday) but all my dearly sweet and kind senior all still wishing for my happiness tday and concern about how my day, idk how to say to them, they just want me to be happy rite ? but i need something to cheer up my day and i dnt noe what is it, as usual lah kn, but okay lah, i got some memories tday, and and thanks to amira hasim and adli for being da first person (gurl and boy) dat wished me and to fieza, effa and amer syazwan, thx fr da adiah, haha tak kesah lah pape jeh yg korg ksi tuh and then to durrah and epul, happy birthday t0o :D

why everyone's being unfair to me ?

fr tday lah, suma tanak ckp ngan aku ouh, well aku tak kesa, tp klau aku da tego tuh, cuba jwb, sket pn tape ah, aiyaa, dis morning i woke up late, around 6.50 am, gah ! then i bcame really stress coz i'm afraid to arrive at school late, but actually it's nothing, but fr tday lah (again) and then alya dgn gila gila die (of course), i dnt mind but campur dgn school thingy and duduk dlm kelas, it's start to make me feel like heck ! but dat morning, alya put black nail colour/polish, wtv i dnt remember, at my nail, i must admit and say dat it's kinda cool, well thanks alya, dont be offnd about you being gila gila, and then rehat, we're not going anywhere, just ulang alik 4.1 and 4.2, ceh bukan jumpa org yg aku nak pn, pfftt haha, but azma, effa yg lepak kt kelas kteorg done their nail also ( what ? sounds like we're having slumber party at school, muahaha :)) ) then ble tyme bm and akaun, mmg 'tak' ngantok ah, lg ngantok dr sejarah pg tuh haha but finally i got over it, ble balik, haaa mmg cium lah beshties beshties itu, mereka mmg layan bana but khaulah do layan me, and of course, my dearest alya and azma, syg korg tp korg tak syg kte en :< after dat, blk umah, i still have a lot of things to do, but but i really wanna say dat i'm still waiting for a miracle to happen, i need something to change my heck lonely quiet lifee, alritee the end, 16:55 110209 ( 5 days more, isnt it ?) =)